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Z I can't believe you are 2 today! All night last night I struggled to fall asleep thinking and wishing I could stop time for a bit! I repeatedly replayed the events building up to your birth in my head! I woke up at 3 to check on you and laid in bed thinking about 2 years ago at this time daddy and I were walking the hospital trying to get my contractions moving. Than again at six I stared at the clock thinking about how my water broke.... well you know how the rest goes!

Being a mom is such a bitter sweet thing! I love watching you grow and learn and become the beautiful person I see in you, but it breaks my heart all at the same time because I know you are not my little baby anymore you are a big girl and there is nothing I can do about it! You are such an amazing gift to me. You are in a great easy going mood like 98% of the time which is such a blessing! Plus you make us all laugh and smile constantly! I really do feel like I don't deserve such an amazing bright little ray of sunshine! I love you baby girl!

We are having a party later today at Grandma Janine's house for you which I will write about separately, for now I just wanted to let you know what was on my mind and how much I love you!

All my heart,

Mama