OK so every day I feel super blessed and lucky that Kevin and I are in a position where I can stay home with you guys! Today, though was one of those days where I felt extra blessed! We took Mac to the little field in our complex (really quite a pretty little place) and you guys played and ran and chased each other. As we sat and goofed around in the sunshine I got a little teary eyed because I couldn't imagine missing these precious/fleeting little moments with you guys that I hope to remember forever! Being your mom is by far the most difficult, awesome, selfless, scarey, love filled job I have ever had and I wouldn't trade it for ANYTHING!
Last night Z, you woke up in the middle of the night crying.... I think you had had a bad dream. At the risk of sounding ridiculously needy.... it made me so happy that all you wanted/needed to feel better was me! It so heart warming and almost unfathomable that at your most vulnerable and scariest moment I am what will make you feel better! It is almost a little frightenting to me to mean that much to someone, but I embrace it whole heartedly and I hope I can always be there for you! I climbed right into your bed (which is possible now that you are out of the crib) and you wrapped your little chubby arms around my neck and kept whispering "ma ma ....ma ma..." as if you were making sure I hadn't escaped the death grip you had on me. So through my exhaustion I couldn't help but feel so happy to be snuggling in bed with you! Needless to say I didn't have the heart to leave and I stayed with you till morning. Georgie even ended up in bed with us! I sure do love you guys!
Love,
Mama
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