Thank you

I know this is just my lowly blog, but it is also kind of an online journal/diary of sorts for me to get thoughts out! Today I had a moment.... a moment I want to remember. A moment of bliss/joy/sadness/appreciation all rolled into one! Driving home from a pretty regular dinner at the Cooke's house, just me and my babes. Listening to The River Flows In You with all the windows rolled down. I could see Z & G in the back seat both just staring out the window as we drove and I could hear little Timmy babbling to himself. I turned and smiled back at George and he blew me a kiss. The sun was setting and the sky was a bright blue still, but streaked with the gorgeous orange and pink clouds.... I know it might sound cliché or whatever, but I just suddenly felt so overwhelmed! Overwhelmed listening and watching my sweet innocents children in the rear view mirror, just looking so calm and peaceful and thinking how completely and unfathomably blessed I am to have them in my life. The joy they bring to me hourly has honestly got to be a glimpse of heaven....

I feel so overwhelmed by the beauty I have in my life every day, in my family and friends.

I feel so overwhelmed by everything going on with my mom. I think I come off as the callus one who doesn't care, or isn't affected, but its just not true. It seems to strike me at random moments. Moments like this one, driving home, on a drive I have done a million and one times. An overwhelming feeling of fear & sadness strikes...... I know everything will be ok, I KNOW God has bigger plans than we can imagine.

I know it will be ok.

Just like that the fear fades into trust, faith, hope, & back to joy.

I don't think I take enough time to thank God! I don't know anyone or anything that I feel more complete and extreme trust in like I do in God the Father, Son, & Holy Spirit! I know without a doubt that even if things are frustrating, scary, difficult, exhausting. etc..... IT WILL BE FINE!

I would be tortured for, die for, do anything to protect my children and that is with only my feeble love, love tainted by original sin! God's has perfect love for us, His children and that is so consoling, such a comfort!

It was a brief car ride home, but I want to remember it. Remember how I felt with tears streaming down my face, as I smiled, and felt the wind blowing with the beautiful music playing. Thank you so much for everything! I know I don't deserve it!